so.....it's been a while

when you leave something for a long time and then try and get back into it, it's really weird. You fee like you should be able to just jump right back in, but the abilities you had developed are no longer developed. Thus, you have to start over like you had never done it in the first place. I came to this realization today. I jumped into three things that I used to do a lot, but haven't done in a long, LONG time.

One of those things was exercise. I'm still a bit sore from what I did this afternoon. The only reason that I was able to move after doing all those sit ups and push ups was my job. Being a bus boy is very physical, so my new exercise routine didn't kill me from the start.


The next thing was my comic. I started drawing again. It took quite a bit of work to get the main character down. I had lost him and had to do a few takes before I had a semblance of him back in my mind and hand. So now I will draw everyday. This will do a number of things. One, my comic will start to be updated again. Two. I will start doing something productive that will give me a feeling that I've accomplished something each day so I don't feel like a total loser. Three, I'll be acting on one of my dreams.

And the third thing I jumped back into was this. Blogging. It's not as hard as the other things, but I had to get my brain to a point where it was able to just start expelling thoughts. I haven't done that in a while so that took some mental gymnastics for me. But by this point, I'm fully back in the game. So I blog on. I should try to blog daily. Will I ? I don't know. Maybe not. It's really not as important in my life as the other two things.

And now that I'm done with those thoughts, I look at the clock and tell myself, "Oh crap." I have to be awake in six hours so I'm gonna leave now. bye bye all. pray for me if you get an inkling.

life as we know it

I'm growing a mustache
I figured out what my core sin is
I kind of have a plan in place to beat it


I don't really like my mustache, but they allow them at disneyland and I really want something on my face. I currently have no one to try and impress so I'm in the clear on that front. It's just me and my facial hair. YAY!

And that's all I have time for. If you read this, pray for me. I need it.

nutshells

Well, a lot is happening in my life right now. One, I'll be going to Finland in April with a group from my church. I'm really looking forward to the trip, but at the same time there's the underlying worry that Disney won't approve the time off and I'll lose my job if I go. But then again, I would kind of enjoy losing my job because that would give me a reason to get a job somewhere else. I keep going in circles like that in my head. So that's that situation.

Another thing is my vow of singlehood for the year. It'll be good and for the most part it's really a non-issue at the moment. But I still find myself thinking about a lot of different things surrounding the issue, namely girls that are big parts of my life. And that's how vague it is in my head. I'm glad for this though. The vagueness helps me not dwell on the thoughts too much. And I realized on my way home tonight that I need to take an approach on this subject in a way that most people would think is cold and unfeeling. I need to weigh out all the pros, cons, options, etc. in a near clinical manner. Putting it in words like this makes it sound like I have no feelings or something, but I do and that's why I must do it this way.

And finally, I'm trying to start getting my life together. I'm trying to organize, de-junkify, and increase productivity. AKA grow up. It's really hard. And I'm not even sure of how to do any of it. But I figure that I'll figure it out if I stick to it.

And that's how I'm doing right now

Goals and Incentives

So we had a sermon on goal setting this past week. I was thinking about it all today and decided that I should make a list of daily goals and incentives to go with them. I got my goals down and how to reach them, but I couldn't think of any incentives to go with those goals. So I started asking around about incentives. The following is the list I was able to put together from what people shared with me.

If you achieve your goal for the day, you can:
Watch a TV show that you really like to watch.
Treat yourself to a small sweet or some other food.
Tell others about it and receive their praise.

Something else to try could be to make it into a step process. And you don't let yourself go to the next step until you've completed the first one. Or perhaps you could create tangible evidence of your progress in your goal. Those are just thoughts of mine that I'm throwing out there. And now I need to get myself to bed. I stayed up later than I intended.

sleepy sam types totes

I don't really mean anything by saying "totes" in the title. I was just trying to think of something that started with t and that was all that came to mind at the moment.

Why am I typing? I should be asleep. I have to be working in less than 11 hours.

So, I've been thinking about all sorts of things and how to work them all out. I've got a lot of books that I need to read. Four that I can think of off the top of my head. And I have to learn Finnish. I started that yesterday. And it's not going to be easy. It's a language that is like nothing I've ever experienced. But I think that I'll be able to get a few people together to learn it so that we'll be able to help each other with it. that'll help it move along a bit better. I don't think that weather and culture will be big obstacles, but language could be. And I've got four months to get it down. I can do it.

How will I relate to those people? I really don't know how I'll do it. I guess I'll figure it out when I get there. Because I don't know what they'll be into. I don't know what strikes their fancy. And I won't know this stuff until I'm there and I SEE where they're at and what they're doing. At that point, I'll be able to figure it out though. So I don't need to stress about any of this stuff. My big thing that I use is movies and other shows that I've seen. I use scenes out of these to draw comparisons in order to relay my meaning when I'm talking. I don't know. it'll work itself out. I need to go to sleep. good night everybody.

I'm back at pipeline

when I first started at pipeline we started a semi-tradition of writing down funny things that we said while in the soundbooth. I called this weekly segment on my MySpace account "Soundbooth Sentences". Then I left for a while and it stopped. Now that I'm back, we'll continue with the funnies. Only this time I'll be posting to my blog so that even more people can enjoy it. YAY! And with out further adiue, I present this week's Soundbooth Sentances.....


We don't condone violence inside the theater. Only outside. So take her outside and then throw the bottle at her.

I want to be an elf.

Is he gonna blowtorch the bird?

Am I allowed to watch this? Yes....I think. WAIT! DON'T LOOK!

Pick the red one. What? The SKULL!

Grab your freaking bell!

so I'm back at pipeline