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So, it's 2am and I'm tired. But I'm still awake because I allowed myself to be distracted by youtube. I had decided way earlier that I was going to blog something, so I'm actually going to stick with that decision and blog.

What shall I blog about? I've been really depressed the past couple weeks. I just recently got through that. And why was Sam depressed? A girl. Boo. Oh well. it's how I'm wired I guess. Anyhoo, I'm through that now and I'm glad for it. I'm thinking that it was a good thing to go through because now I'm thinking about it and what it made me go through mentally and spiritually. I've developed my abilities somewhat because of it. So now, as I sit and think, I'm not just thinking about my issues, but also how I can use my slightly more honed abilities for the work of the Kingdom. I still don't know how. So I pray for that to be revealed in time.

I'm in a mopey mood right now. Not really depressed, but I just feel like sitting and brooding over my thoughts as I listen to slow, depressed music. Odd, no? Anyhoo, I'm like that sometimes. This is normal brooding, not depressed brooding. YAY! Praise be to God for giving me the ability to recognize these things about myself. And sometimes others.

I'm really torn right now. If I move into the kitchen, I'll get valuable experience with food working but I'll be making way less money. If I stay in my current bussing position, I'll be able to save up faster but I'll be getting ZERO practice with my culinary skills. And normally I'd say that money isn't that important, but now that I have big bills and an ambitious plan to buy a building for my restaurant, money is looking more and more friendly. GAH! And it's really nice to have some money when I'm so used to not having any. Anyhoo, that's where I'm at. Now I must sleep. Goodnight/morning.

Oh, and in case you're interested, here are a couple of the youtube videos that distracted me. I rather liked them. The first one looks kind of sketchy, but it's not really. I promise.