The first week back

As some of you know, I just gat back from Finland a week ago.  And now that I'm back, I'm feeling rather weird about being back.  It's like I'm a map that's been opened up of a few hours.  Even if you fold on the lines exactly the same way it was folded in the first place, it still doesn't feel or look the same as it did.  I'm too different to allow myself to fall into the same patterns I had before I left.  But how do I change things up?  This is my current conundrum.  So I need to stop distracting myself and sit and hash this one out, yeah?

Things I know:

-I need to really step things up at Pipeline

-I have goals set that I haven't even started to work towards

-I really need to pray more about a lot of different things

-I get distracted from things more easily than I'd like

A little girl in Finland gave me a "lucky moon".  I'm keeping it in my pocket notebook right now.  I don't know why I feel like I should keep it.  It's just a little paper moon that she cut out.  Interestingly enough, there have been many a night where the moonlight was very comforting and calming for me.  How could she know that?  She's only 10 or so.  Odd how my brain pulls these things together.  MAny a time I've made connections between things that may or may not have been mere coincidence.  Of course that brings up the classic question, "Is there such a thing as a coincidence?"  My answer: yes there are mere coincidences, but not as many as people think.  And there are more connections than people realize as well.

Take our team.  We were all there to do something.  We all had specific reasons we were there.  I don't know mine, because I never see what I contribute to anything.  Perhaps God blocks this from me so that I don't get a big head.  But a few of us were there specifically to talk to specific people.  A few of us were there to encourage our brothers and sisters across the globe.

And this is where my brain gets jumbled to the point that I'm too tired to really keep typing.  Plus I gotta get up in five hours so I can be at Pipeline.  So away I go folks.  I'll finish up later.  If I remember.