Kingman 03

So I've signed myself up with a temp agency. That means that I should be getting SOMETHING in the next week or so. We'll see if that actually happens. Grandpa's fine, I'm fine, the dog's fine. And fine is really the only way to describe us. None of us are outstanding but none of us are really crappy either. We're just........okay.

I started thinking today about why I came out here. I was in the back room falling into a funk and I started thinking to myself, "Do I really have a good, legitimate reason to be out here?" I started going over everything that I had told myself and everything that I had told others.
I'm helping my grandpa out.
I'm getting away from distractions to really get close to God.
I can get a job easier.
The change of pace will help me get a better grip on life.
I'll find a mentor in my grandpa.
And others that I know I had that I don't remember right now.
Are any of these true? Am I doing any of these things out here? Right now, no. Of course this is only the first month, right? It'll get better right? These things will start happening, right? I don't know. And no one else on earth knows either. God only knows what's gonna happen in my life.

But there is one thing that I know for sure. One good reason for me to be out here. It's good that I'm away from that person. If I wasn't, I don't know how well I'd be doing right now. I'd probably be doing a LOT worse. So it's good even though it sucks. Kind of like doing situps. Or running the mile. Or something like that. So I at least have this sort of mental trainging happening. WOOT.

I'm having to re-learn a lot of stuff out here. Stuff like, trusting God and His provision. Trusting His plan. So we'll see how that goes too. I've gotta go read so I'll see y'all later.