Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space


I have this song on repeat right now. It pretty much sums up how I feel right now. It's by Blue October and you can listen to it here.

After watching the video I can see it having a different meaning from what I originally put into it. But that's the great thing about music. It can (and usually will) mean something totally different to everyone listening to it.

The main thing that attracted me to this song in the very beginning was the raw passion that I heard. Its something that isn't very common in music. Then I started listening to the lyrics and realized that this song delved deep into a facet of the human condition that isn't really ever handled well in my book. But this song handles this topic awesomely. And it really handles it the only way it can be handled: in music.

This song has touched my life in many ways. And in a way, I'm glad that I've actually gone through what is described in the song. I think I'm a better man for it. I hope I'm a better man for it.

Listen to it and feel free to share your thoughts on how the song makes you feel. :D