tired and solemn

I don't know why my mood switched in such a way. I was sitting there listening to the sermon, and laughing at the funny parts. And at the end we did our ending prayer like we usually do. At the end of this prayer, I felt like I got hit in the chest with a baseball bat. All these things that I've ran into in my life started surfacing again. All these different people that I've met. All these desires that I've had. I've just got this feeling that I need to be doing more than I am. I don't know how to step it up though. I've a feeling I'll be moving soon though. How exactly I'll be moving, I don't know. But I can sense a big move coming up in my life. Or maybe it's just me realizing that I need to make a big move happen. I don't know. Hopefully something will happen this week. I sense that it can. If I assert myself and really focus on God.


Shell, shell
you are my friend.

Shell, shell
you are my end.

If I stay with you
I cannot grow.

For you don't know
where I should go.

Shell, shell
You've saved me from a lot of pain.

Shell, shell
you've kept me dry from all the rain

But rain is what
I need right now.

A cleansing torrent
upon my brow.

I know not where I will go
My faith is in His Power though

And with His love and guidance plenty
I shall become who I should be

Shell, shell
this is my vow.

Shell, shell
I leave you now.